its so painful suddenly and idk what to do
usually don’t put this on my tumblr but i need somewhere to put these thoughts and this is actually the best place to and so i didn’ t think i will want to continue serving in this ministry but after a rehearsal yesterday, i was brought back to knowing why i serve in the first place. thank u for making me feel that again and not just serving for the sake of doing it because there is not enough manpower kind of thing. it wasn’t perfect but it was good enough and i felt it entirely, thank u for letting me feel that
set me free
i have painted such a perfect picture for people and myself that when i finally face it and deal with it, it hurts so freaking much. i hate it.